Rawr!?

4:44pm: ....
note to self:stop falling in love with too many girls.find only one and stick with em.its all you can handle homo:]

4:34pm: mkay so still early.
so i made like the illiest techno beat ever in my head.here it goes

mms mms mms mms mms mms mms mms mms mms(<-while this beat is in the back) bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah bwah(whistler in the backbbbbbbbbbbbwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaah bwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwahh bbbbbbbbbbbwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah (shit fades while mms beat is still playing!)teeee teeee teeee teee teee teeee ne ne ne ne teeeee teeeee teeeee teee nee nee nee nee nee nee (theme song from uuuh what would go good.fine titanic)doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo wah wah waaaahh wah wah waaaah wah wah waaaah wah wah waaah(remember mms still in the back round)wah waaaaah wah waaaaah waaahaa wah wah wah wahwah wah wah wah doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo(fade)bwwwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah then mortal combat guy saying "finish him" then bwah bawh bawh bawh bwah bwh bawh bawh bawh bawh bawh bwahhhhhhhhhh ms ms ms ms ms ms ms ms ms ms ms ms mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmssss mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmssssss mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmms

..thats all i got kay i got to go to work now
<3

4:05pm: mkay so like im driving towards santa cruz tomorrow night right after i get off from work to visit some old friends and stuff.i dont have much mooney on me wich sucks cuz like bills and shit.so i think i haave like400 hahaha pretty sucky but yeah il make it work.im so excited to see my ex.i miss her.il be sad taht shes going to move so thats why im going up there manley to see her.i dont care if she has a boyfriend my best friend is going to be outa state and it would be nice to see her one last time.i have work at 5.my band started all over again from metal-core to emo/posthardcore/screamo.oh and changed the name to a serenade in silence.i wanna change it to something else.it still sounds metal.maybe like "sabastian"hahaha thats ians(my singers)real name:]i like it or like something that doesnt sounds so metal.hmmm so things with me lately.so i have not many friends here.i hate that.i hate hanging out with jeff cuz all he wants is money and always asks me and it pisses me the fuck off.i like hanging out with Miguel but he cant get outa the house cuz his dad is a pain.heather.....yeah right heather pffff.jason doesnt like to hangout with me cuz he still thinks i like heather.ian is too busy with his gal pal.last person i hung out with is natasha.i hate/like hanging out with her.i hate how she lies.i like the girl company and cuddling and holding hands.im fuckn horrible i should go play on a freeway.welli guess im just desperate.i block the hate part when i hangout with her.arg i hate.it.and i fuckn hate her myspace.well i am a hypocrite for saying that cuz i guess word on the street that im a big myspace whore out there.whateves i should say anything about it...hmm am i just dying for a female compainion about now?i think so its about that time.oh livejournal i wish i have deleted my old journal so i can look back at how i was.my old lj was tortillajoe hahah that name.well to tell you the history about my name not just cuz im mexican but like my friend mattman would always throw parties out in his house and when the munchies kick in tortillas would always sound delicious soi i wuls sneak in his fridge and knab like a few and just eat em plain.but yeah hint the name tortillajoe.shit its like 4 21 right now and uhh work.gawd im excited.just hope i can stay awake driving towards there:]

peanut butter jelly time.

12:14pm: we be thuggin:D
Good lord i forgot i have this livejournal!anyways yeah things just been pretty bland lately.school has been put to a halt,work is just shitty cuz of my hours,and having to move out pretty soon.uh so how has everyone been?i wanna leave this place.i wanna see amanda before she leaves to washington.i want my old friends back.there are just so many things i want in life that i cant have but life is shitty like that aint it?oh and i want a better car.fuck my car even though its in prefect condition.i need new scubs.on my white ones i got makeup on the rim of the collar.whateves i will settle for the duck scrub top.i have work today from 2 to 10.shitty.oh hmm tomorrow i have a date date with natasha early and a guitar one on one with heather.geee i have a crush on her.shes pretty.i dont think i can do anything about it cuz shes in my band.hmm could i ?nah that would be wierd and she is kinda intimidating.she told me a secert on sunday and it made me special.she even said jokingly that she wants to marry me and said she loves me lol.oh my goodness im fuckn gay.so yeah if you have myspace add the band im in www.myspace.com/adeathlikesilence pretty cool but we are doing recording again now cuz i just joined the band so yeah when you hear the music on the page there is just heather on the guitar.wow i talk about here a lot. fuck this lately all i been listening in my car is bone thungs and its pretty sick.that and old new found glory.i just dont understand why not al ot of people like em?fuckn amazing. there has to be one exception to dating me.you have to love the fact that i will spoil you and like new found glory.hahahaha man i just cant get outa my head right now taht i want a certain someone to like and have them like me back.i miss that a lot. ahhh i almost teared but yeah i want that more than anything.i think im at the point of my life rightn now that im desperate.ewww despreate me!hahah yeah i konw Jay kay but seriously i think so.oh goodness im hungry.i didnt eat nothing this mourning and uhhh i have no idea what to eat.but i can also go for some grap flavor water:D fuckn key.ewww and when am i going to change my fuckn pic on this livejournal.soo 9th grade.hahhaa my hair now is that i have bangs with sides and a lil mohawk that i never put up cuz im to lazy so i put on a hat.im all gansta now. i roll with jerseys,rolled on leg pants but still rolling in girl 0's pants,and some nike kicks and ankle socks.cuz its how we roll in the hood.i was just in mexicao not so long ago and i found a tattoo parlor.i think i wanna get my shit done there and i bet its fuckn cheap as hell.but then again how sanitary are there junk?hmmm oh job for a cowboy is coming on friday here in soma im kinda excited yay look at me:D well hmm nothig to really talk about here anymore.i need more san diego friends.there i think im done.tootles<3

1:32pm: xroastbeefx
so heres a quicky for all you!so yeah im in love and she konws who she is and yeah im in the library typing up a report and yaeh things cant get any better.oh but i can cuse i will be with her on febuary in boston and im fuckn excited.i cant wait to see in the mourning and NOT lose signal when we talk and stuff and we are just going to have a hell of a time!!!!!well this stupid library closes at 2 so i have 30 more mins to hurry the fuck up and stuff and yeah and i love you aunty net ...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!christmas is coming soon and fuck i have towork that day.fuck me and being a fuckn nurse.fuck fuck fuck.crap i need to poop.and finish this stupid work and yeah really need to poop.well ahnet i love you sooo and this entry is for you cause im wickedly ghey and never update my shit so yes yes yes i fuckn love you so<3


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4:29pm: my phone doesnt work:-(
i know that sucks:-(everything is sucking.breaking up with my girlfriend was sucky.the water taht i drank out the water fountain from school was yucky.this sucks......oh and ambee i had a feeling you have texted me while my phone was shipped out....std's?hahaha your fuckn great will call ya tonight!

2:38pm: damnit on the day i really want to go myspace,its not working.damnit i need to see it just for a little bit:-/

1:05pm: damnit! so like i am on a computer finally and yet no one is on aim and shit!either thawt or they gots new screenames and such!drat so like nothing really new with me.just baking in the sd weather andgoing to work and school.work is fun.i work at hustler holly..yeah huh and porn shop wich is pretty cool and yeah im studying to become a nurse or something like taht so i have one more year and yup i can nurse and stuff.so yeah well like im in the library and yeahso i got to go and stuff cause my time is up and yeah people should call me! el fin<3

:-(i havent been on myspace and this computer wont let me go on it...

1:17pm: so fresh'n so clean.
oh boy where to begin.well yeah im sd right now doing nursing and cosmotology and computer neworking.yeah its a butt load. but yeah nothing new excet that i cant put aim here on this laptop.i have no idea why and yeah it sucks.so yeah still with my girlfriend and all but there is just oe thing wrong that erally scares me about this relationship.she has like planned out our future together! im so scared of this.a big turnoff is telling you girl/boy friend that you want a house with a picked fence and kids and a dog.yeah i jsut cant really get it outa my head that this will be happening soon.yeah im really scared.i dont want to start filing taxes, taking kids to the daycare,and yeah well being a responssible parent.just ew.oh boy and yeah i guess its not just a small thing but a kinda big thing cause she looks pretty stoked on it.man i tell ya i dont think i want a girlfriend anymore but i love her so so much and she has given up everything for me just to be with me.i dont konw what to do.i want it back where i was single and dont have to worry a thing and do my own bizz.fuck i cant really take care of my own self right now it really suxs.so yeah basically i just want to be free and have fun and not worry about kids housees and taxes for another 10 to fiffteen years.fuck what am i going to do today?hmm lets see.for one i got to take a shower cause i feel realy greasey and yeah my glasses keep sliding off my nose so ew.then go eat soemthing cause my tumm isnt really feeling the pb&j that i ate.then well i guess thats it or just sit and play the guitar.oh y goodness the as i lay dying cd release is this month and yeah they are playing with ,yeah one of my favorites ever..EIGHTEEN VISIONS! yeh so i dont know whens taht but taht will rock.oh and champion is comin to town as well so yeah i bought my basket ball shorts and a headband.yeah i fuckn bought a head band.looks pretty cool on me hehehe.on and get another lipring for my left piercing cause i lost one of my silver ones at a betrayed show at che cafe and yeah it scs.now im using a black spare which it doesnt go well with my silver on but ehh oh well.and yeah san diego sucks.well where i live at.here in where i live has a very hip hop and rap scene here so yeah you dont hear anyone in there are blasting"chug chug chug chug wee wee wee" yeah hardcore stuff but i love rap so yeah its cool.they arent realy down with the tight pants,nice hair,and piercings.crap its 1 42 right now so yeah im gonna take a shower...i lubby you all♥

ps..and about the new as i lay dying..its hectic.soo good so im stoked..and yeah bye<3

3:34pm: white out?!
so basically i got a new phone! uuuhm its (831)419 8028...i dont have that many freinds numbers on my phone cause i left my old phone at brittaneys car and yeah..will you call me or just leave me your number..... i lost my cell number..whats your number so i can borrow it!
oh and yes im in love to the most sweetiest most beautiful girl ever! her name is amanda and yesone day i snuck in her room and surpized her with a rose and a letter so she can read whille in class and yeah i snuck in gave her all that while her parents are still in the other room which dont like me cause im different and yeah they dont want me dating her cause the way i fuckn look..anywho yeah she snuck me in her bead and she was so amazed that i had surpized her and to even top it off..i asked her out! right there and she was like like so red and just couldnt stop smilingand stayed there till 6 in the morning and left her room and wrote her a note of how special she is to me and how funny that she is dreaming and talking in her sleep.every cute..anywwho yeah im so happy right now!hmm well i got to get back to class so joey out!

12:39am: crap i hungout with her today and man a side of me was very estastic and the otherside of me makes me feel really sad and bumed out.i hate this.but im not going to let this friendship slip again.god,but i still love her.